There will be a quizz on Tuezzday

Full of different emotions for tomorrow morning.

Looking for my inner Warrior...

I am in a real health funk, and have been in for a year I think. They are really hard to see yourself when they start, but boy am I in it now. I weigh as much as I did when I started on here, which includes almost a 50 lb. weight loss the right way. Now I'm hovering around 270 lb mark again and I can't stand it.

There's a whole host of reasons for my current situation, but I don't want to dwell on the negative. I take ownership of my current well being.

For a month now a friend of mine has been talking about a race called the Warrior Dash. I didn't know much about it and did a little research online. The Warrior dash is around a 5k race with all kinds of fun looking obstacles & mud along the way. It looks like just the kind of event I would love. Sadly, I ignored the emails since I just didn't feel like my current day self could prepare for or survive this event. This was an embarrassing time for me. Just a year ago I was 50 lbs lighter and could have kicked this events butt. Now I feel like a quitter.

Over the weekend my buddy again copied me on an email that he was signing up. I instantly said I wouldn't in an email reply...but this was killing me. I was angry at myself for giving up. A day later, I just signed up! Wow!

I now have 8 months to prepare and don't know where to start but I am excited for the first time in a long time. My wife supports me and I know I can do it.

The one thing I know is I will need a lot of support to turn myself around, and I'll look to Spark People to gain momentum as I track my progress.

I'm not sure what I've gotten in to here, but here goes!

http://www.warriordash.com/register2011_ohio.php

Memorial

My son was born February 14, 2010, and did not survive. He was only 17 weeks old when we went into labor, and it would have taken a miracle. We were not granted the miracle we wanted. The lord walks this path with us, I just do not understand where the path is taking us.

This is on my mind today since I had to call the funeral home to schedule the baby memorial. The memorial is a group event for parents like us that lost their child during birth or had late term miscarriages. This really puts a period at the end of the sentence for me. Now that I know the date of this service, all my old feelings of loss and sadness have returned.

I still know I cannot ask the "why's", that is a path with no light or end. I am still angry this happened and sad at the thought my boy would be two months old right now.

This has tested, not broken, my faith. Through this all I am grateful for God, my family and friends. Most importantly I am glad I have my wife Jenny. I admire her strength through this, and am not sure I could have made it without her. I'm sure she thinks I helped her through this, when in fact God helped us help each other through this. We would not make it through this time with just the two of us. Our partner in marriage is Jesus, and He is carrying us when we need it, and helping us carry each other. And maybe, my son is sitting on my shoulder when I need him, saying "Don't worry Daddy, I love you both, and I'm OK."

I sure hope he is there with angel's wings looking out for us both today.

Should I use this for more than random reviews & posts?

I may give this a try, blogging opinions and experiences once a week.

My Review of M.H.Bertucci Titanium Nylon Watch

Originally submitted at REI

This analog watch is sleek enough to wear indoors and rugged enough to use outdoors.

M.H.Bertucci Titanium Nylon Watch

Simple, light and classic.

By Mark M. from Cleveland, OH on 6/21/2010

 

4out of 5

Gift: No

Pros: Stylish, Comfortable

Best Uses: Travel, Daily Use, Work

Describe Yourself: Athletic, Practical

I normally lean towards watches that have gadgets and features, so this purchase is a bit of a diversion. I love the light feel, and classic look. The watch band is nice, but I'll probably replace it with a "The band" type strap eventually anyway. The one piece design, with no pins, is perfect for strap type watches.

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My Review of REI Mojave Polo Shirt - Men's

Originally submitted at REI

This classic polo shirt is made of a breathable, moisture-wicking, quick-dry fabric to keep you comfortable in warm and humid climates.

REI Mojave Polo Shirt - Men's

The best casual golf style shirts I own.

By Mark M. from Cleveland, OH on 4/22/2010

 

5out of 5

Gift: No

Chest Size: Feels true to size

Sleeve Length: Feels true to length

Pros: Dries Easily, Breathable, Comfortable, Stylish

Best Uses: Work, Travel, Casual Wear

Describe Yourself: Casual/ Recreational

This shirt is the best, most comfortable, golf style shirt I own. I have a few now, since I just love to wear them. My uses are for work and weekend wear. You could also use for camping, but I don't want to wear them out too quick.

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