My son was born February 14, 2010, and did not survive. He was only 17 weeks old when we went into labor, and it would have taken a miracle. We were not granted the miracle we wanted. The lord walks this path with us, I just do not understand where the path is taking us.
This is on my mind today since I had to call the funeral home to schedule the baby memorial. The memorial is a group event for parents like us that lost their child during birth or had late term miscarriages. This really puts a period at the end of the sentence for me. Now that I know the date of this service, all my old feelings of loss and sadness have returned.
I still know I cannot ask the "why's", that is a path with no light or end. I am still angry this happened and sad at the thought my boy would be two months old right now.
This has tested, not broken, my faith. Through this all I am grateful for God, my family and friends. Most importantly I am glad I have my wife Jenny. I admire her strength through this, and am not sure I could have made it without her. I'm sure she thinks I helped her through this, when in fact God helped us help each other through this. We would not make it through this time with just the two of us. Our partner in marriage is Jesus, and He is carrying us when we need it, and helping us carry each other. And maybe, my son is sitting on my shoulder when I need him, saying "Don't worry Daddy, I love you both, and I'm OK."
I sure hope he is there with angel's wings looking out for us both today.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
Should I use this for more than random reviews & posts?
I may give this a try, blogging opinions and experiences once a week.
Monday, June 21, 2010
My Review of M.H.Bertucci Titanium Nylon Watch
This analog watch is sleek enough to wear indoors and rugged enough to use outdoors.
Simple, light and classic.
By Mark M. from Cleveland, OH on 6/21/2010
Gift: No
Pros: Stylish, Comfortable
Best Uses: Travel, Daily Use, Work
Describe Yourself: Athletic, Practical
I normally lean towards watches that have gadgets and features, so this purchase is a bit of a diversion. I love the light feel, and classic look. The watch band is nice, but I'll probably replace it with a "The band" type strap eventually anyway. The one piece design, with no pins, is perfect for strap type watches.
(legalese)
Thursday, April 22, 2010
My Review of REI Mojave Polo Shirt - Men's
This classic polo shirt is made of a breathable, moisture-wicking, quick-dry fabric to keep you comfortable in warm and humid climates.
The best casual golf style shirts I own.
By Mark M. from Cleveland, OH on 4/22/2010
Gift: No
Chest Size: Feels true to size
Sleeve Length: Feels true to length
Pros: Dries Easily, Breathable, Comfortable, Stylish
Best Uses: Work, Travel, Casual Wear
Describe Yourself: Casual/ Recreational
This shirt is the best, most comfortable, golf style shirt I own. I have a few now, since I just love to wear them. My uses are for work and weekend wear. You could also use for camping, but I don't want to wear them out too quick.
(legalese)
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
My Review of REI Muir Woods Fleece Vest - Men's
The REI Muir Woods vest looks better than ever—and this midweight, layerable favorite contains 62% recycled fleece.
Solid vest, nice price.
Mark M. Cleveland, OH 4/1/2009
Gift: No
Fit: Feels true to size
Sleeve Length: Feels true to length
Chest Size: Feels true to size
Pros: Warm, Comfortable
Best Uses: Casual Wear, Hiking and Camping
Describe Yourself: Casual Adventurer
This vest fits true to size, and is not baggy. My XL does not fit like a North Face XL, it's a tad slimmer. Large pockets with zipper are nice feature. Collar is short si it can be worn up without irritating face.
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